Lifeless vs Life

Bare skinned, the way we were all exposed to the universe.

Trapped inside my mind.

 No one to go to, nothing to free me.

Trapped in this universe where I don't think I belong.

Desperation grabs my throat as if I was sinking inside a body of water,

I can't escape and I can't understand why this is happening so fast.

Time isn't proving itself that it exists, although I'm here in flesh

I can't seem to prove I exist. 

Troubled mind that never understood the reasoning behind existence in this universe,
not until recently she discovered that all the clues that her life has exposed to her were
the pieces to the puzzle that will never go together. The lack of focus has to be one of the
main pieces. The lack of loyal companions (friends, partners & family) had to be another
main piece. But the sadness that layered on her like a veil, making her view a bit dim is a
piece that will never make sense to her.

Trapped inside the glass cube

Feelings swirling through my brain
Confusion, loneliness,  Do I have friends?
Does anyone know I'm still alive?
It's bittersweet, or at least it could be.
Right now it's just bitter.
The sweetness still lies there, kind of like a grenade.
When no one touches it it's just simply there, not reacting
But when someone grabs it and throws it, there's a huge explosion.
I want someone to grab and throw the sweetness.
It'll explode into something beautifully big.
Colors morphing into one another,
flowers blooming like fireworks rapidly expanding in the sky.
But now, I lay in the bitterness waiting for someone to throw this grenade.